When I first started this journal, I originally intended it as a way to track my progress with my writing and my novel. That is not what has happened…
Fanfiction and fandom seem to have taken over rather and my silly head refuses to let me actually share any of my novel or my beloved main character with anyone, so this journal has never been that.
I do put some original stories here, though they are never commented on so I assume never read. It’s a shame, but not really a problem. It’s hard to get the motivation to read something when the whole thing is an unknown quality and you have no idea what you are getting.
But that said, I want to keep my journal more well-rounded for me. The fanfiction will never stop – it means too much to me – and, when I can be bothered to stop being lazy, other ramblings on fandom, and sometimes life, will appear too. But I’m also going to start putting a log of my ad-hoc musings and ramblings here.
Like many writers (I am assuming here, I’ve never actually asked any) random ideas, snippets of prose, conversation, characters, names etc pop into my head. Often uninvited, usually unaccompanied and sometimes unwelcomed, they still keep coming. I scrawl them down in notebooks, write briefs on my laptop, even store notes in my phone, but I keep them all. One word, two words, a group of sentences, whatever it is. One day that spark, that word or line, could be the start middle or end of something bigger and greater than I have managed so far.
And now I’m going to start keeping them here. Some pages of muses, ramblings and rumblings. They will most likely be of no interest to anyone but me, and they will certainly be owned by no-one but me. I should also point out that if anyone does read them they should not panic. When the dark stuff comes out in my writing it’s because it’s not in my head. This is a good thing. And I make no apologies for recurring themes. It’s my life, it’s what I know.
You’ll see what I mean.