Pissed off Jooles is pissed off

Am winging again.

Feel so ill and frustrated all I want to do is cry again. Today I had the audacity to walk half a mile into town and meet a friend for coffee. She even gave me a lift home.

I got home and felt like crap, but then a friend had a crisis (again reminding me why I don’t do relationships) and I walked the five mins to her house, sat with her for a couple of hours and then walked back.

Now I am slumped on the sofa again completely exhausted and feeling like shit.

And what really pisses me off is that I keep fucking whinging. Assuming the doc is right and this is a virus, it will pass. I have other people in my life going through far worse and they do so quietly, while I fucking whine all the time.

I’m frustrated at being still being sick and angry at myself for handling it so badly.

And yet I still come here and rant.

Pissed off Jooles is pissed off.