Rambling update while I go out of my mind

So, yes, the self pity is still here. I’m still off sick and I still can’t do owt.

Basically, every time I try to move, I go dizzy, woozy, light headed and get the most exciting room spins. The near constant feeling of thinking I’m either going to pass out or fall over and being nauseous is frankly getting a little old. Also, after even the smallest amount of exertion, I am getting shattered. The whole thing is immensely frustrating.

So far we know it’s not an ear infection or labyrinthitis. Doc’s main guesses are:

1. anaemia
2. my immune system is fucked, I have a random virus that is doing this and my body can’t fight it
3. my immune system is pretty rock awesome and I have a less random virus and my body is successfully fighting all the other parts of the virus – hence having no sniffles, swollen glands etc – but not quite able to get this last bit.
   

But I went for ritual blood letting yesterday and should get the results in a week and have a better idea then. As much as I love the NHS…A week?!?

Anyone who knows me knows I am rubbish at being ill and one day is about my tolerance limit. I am going completely stir crazy as I can’t get out of the flat. My flatty is being wonderful though and looking after me and mocking me in equal measure. But I am really frustrated and I just hate not being able to do what I normally do so much. I like being busy; I am good at being busy and this is just maddening. It got so bad I burst into tears on the phone to my mum last night.

Oh, and I’m running out of food cos I can’t get to supermarket. Looks like I’m going to have to fork out on a delivery. On the plus side work are being pretty good and I am doing some work from home so I feel like a vaguely useful member of society again.

I also hate whinging, so apologies for this, but wanted to vent and get it out of my system. I annoy myself because people live with worse every day and I’m bitching about being sick for a week.

Arse then.